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yupyup, i've finally bot my sony cybershot on fri wif my mum @ sony gallery. it was a happy day till at nite. it was whn mdm loke called to say there'll b test nxt wk, den i start to feel uncomfortable, n durin midnite, e feeling is worse. i dont noe if this is called depression or wad, but i juz felt upset. cuz a phonecall waked me up frm e fairy settin i'm enjoyin now. it's nt bcuz of tests whatsoever, but it's bcuz i feel cheated. reality is always torturous, n none seem to get out of it, unless u die. but i dont wan to die yet, wif so many tings undone n fulfilled. perhaps i'm being greedy, n i dont noe how to let go, tts y i tk tings so seriously.
it's rainin now in e afternoon, so i felt worse den ever. i felt useless n stupid so i'll go on lazing ard n doin nth. i cant seem to do anyt rite, n if it's reali rite, i'll stil tink it's wrong. nth gd wil come out of me. nxt wk is comin soon, i dont noe hw to survive thru e wk, n no one can help me, includin myself, cuz i dont wan to help myself. i dont feel motivated. i felt lost. life is a dread. i'm being temperamental now. ):
yupyup, i've finally bot my sony cybershot on fri wif my mum @ sony gallery. it was a happy day till at nite. it was whn mdm loke called to say there'll b test nxt wk, den i start to feel uncomfortable, n durin midnite, e feeling is worse. i dont noe if this is called depression or wad, but i juz felt upset. cuz a phonecall waked me up frm e fairy settin i'm enjoyin now. it's nt bcuz of tests whatsoever, but it's bcuz i feel cheated. reality is always torturous, n none seem to get out of it, unless u die. but i dont wan to die yet, wif so many tings undone n fulfilled. perhaps i'm being greedy, n i dont noe how to let go, tts y i tk tings so seriously.
it's rainin now in e afternoon, so i felt worse den ever. i felt useless n stupid so i'll go on lazing ard n doin nth. i cant seem to do anyt rite, n if it's reali rite, i'll stil tink it's wrong. nth gd wil come out of me. nxt wk is comin soon, i dont noe hw to survive thru e wk, n no one can help me, includin myself, cuz i dont wan to help myself. i dont feel motivated. i felt lost. life is a dread. i'm being temperamental now. ):
