I apologise for being such a lousy person

i guess it feels good to know that someone needs you.
Because it shows that you're important to him/her.
And that is how great it is.
That's friends.

There're too many thin lines,
between what's a friend and that beyond.
I'm starting to feel afraid
about what I want and which will I lose.
Somehow it hurts a lot.
I think, I somehow suck at decision-making.
Can I be exempted then?
To not make a decision?

I lent my shoulder to a stranger 2 days ago.
And we both smiled.
I guess we're both just too tired with our lives at that point of time.
If we happen to meet again,
will you still remember?
That on a late Wednesday morning, you borrowed my shoulder?
And will us all remember,
the many many strangers in life
that we once meet, and smiled to,
and perhaps will not meet again?

there're many things i don't want to forget; and some I can't help remembering.
it's scary, somehow.
i don't understand,
and I'm waiting for someone to teach me.
A teacher.
i don't want to end up full of tears.
the colder i am,
the more afraid i feel.
life's so fragile.

I'm starting to break away,
waiting for someone to piece me up.
and i don't know who.

I want to apologise.
For being such a lousy person.
I'm really sorry.
I will pick myself up again,
once i'm ready.